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Yeah. Stuff.

I'm getting extremely Agrivated with people as of late. Or rather... again. It seems like I'm changing into this completely different person than I've been over the past 6 years. No make that 5. I'm pretty much reverting to what I was in 7th grade, only not half so shy.

I'm afraid Tilda and I aren't going to last as friend through the year and then I'm going to have to cry. I need to pull myself away from crew so that I can get an outside perspective on things again.

My Senior re-take pictures are tomorrow. I feel hideously fat and ugly. I want to look like i did last year. I gained over 20 lbs since last summer and I feel HUGE! The fact that I'm in Adventure Ed for Gym is not helping the health issues here, not at all. But then, Irene straightened my hair tonight. I am eternally gratefull to her. I invaded on her homework time and she was apologizing. As though I was going to do my homework. Ha, can you imagine?

Our Spring Break trip for Orchestra is making me more and more excited everyday. Prag, Vienna and Budapest(sp?). And I can have instant recall of Germany and oh my god I want to cry now. I miss that summer so much. I miss being with all my people for about a month straight and not having to deal with the stress of real life. I want to see Alma and tell her that I think she's really awesome and that I wish that I had fit her idea of an American. I need to get a package together for her and send it off for the Holidays.

I need a Teddy Bear.