and for some reason I'm not happy. Something's wrong with me. Went to the picnic, and did nothing. I wanted too, but it was so damned hot and Irene was over on the other side and Tilda kidnapped me, and I felt bad, but it wasn't like either Irene or Chelle were excited that I showed up, Tilda was actually happy. So they can all shove it. I keep telling myself to just take a deep breath whenever I do this, cause it's stupid. I'm putting myself down and that makes me unhappy and I deserve to be happy. I just have to remember that almost as soon as I signed on-line Jim IMed me because he's awesome. Sometimes I wish that boy were straight, but then he'd probably be an ass...
But yeah, school's over and I feel nothing besides tired and kinda depressed. And neither of those things have much to do with school.
I don't have any friends I can really confide in anymore. Tilda, though we talk a lot and share secrets, it's more of two psyches giving each other therapy. Irene, though we've done a lot of stuff, she's got Michelle now, and I'm not necessary. She's noticed it too, that I'm kinda pushed to the side. Chelle, I get the feeling Chelle gets sick of me pretty easy sometimes. I need a Psych, cause they'd be paid to listen to me, and I wouldn't worry about whether or not I annoyed them. Crying is a sign of weakness.
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